Hard times and far from Home

Well it's been over two weeks since I have given an update about my journey here in China. I have had people asking me how I am doing and what is going on with me here. I kind of feel bad that I have left so many people hanging. Well here it goes....

Two Mondays ago was a supposedly a normal start to a week. I left my apartment at 8am to catch the bus to SmartKids to teach. The day went well, the kids listened and really seemed to have fun. This was also the day My recruiter was going to talk to the school about my contract and pick up my salary for the past month. 

Well the day ends and I head home. I was pretty happy with the day, the boss actually acknowledged my presence and talk to me and the day went really well with the kids in my class. Well at 5pm my recruiter calls me and says that he needs to meet up with me to talk about some things and it needed to be today. So I rearranged some of the plans I had made so that I could meet up with him. 

My home tutoring family picked me up at 5:30 to take me to the Carrefour market to meet up with him. We sit down at a table in the Burger King. He hands me my salary for the last month! I wasn't expecting to get paid so that was a nice surprise! And then he hits me with the news! So he talked with the boss man at SmartKids today and the guy said he didn't want me to be a lead teacher at his school anymore. He said I wasn't entertaining enough and I didn't build enough relationship with the kids. (Bullshit!) My recruiter was confused because he had been talking to other teachers the past 4 weeks and they had all said I was doing a good job. But anyways the boss man didn't want me as a lead teacher, so now I am sitting in Burger King with my first paycheck and also my last one from SmartKids. I didn't know what to do. I had never lost a job over something that wasn't true. The kids loved me and they were always having fun during my class. But anyways, I was now jobless in this foreign country and city without any of my friends or family around. Also I still had to go do home teaching without breaking into tears. 

So all night at home tutoring I just tried to forget about the conversation I had just had my recruiter where my dreams of China began to get crushed. Once home teaching was over and they drove me home the water works begin. I just had to be in the comfort of my own bed so that I could cry. My roommate kept saying that the school wasn't worth my tears but I wasn't crying because I lost the job. I truly hated that job. I was crying because I was let go from the job for no reason. I felt like I had failed and I was 7000 miles away from my friends and family. It was also too early in the morning to get ahold of someone back home to talk to. All I really wanted to do at that point was get on a plane and go home. I know God has called me to be in China, but losing my job for no reason was a big obstacle I didn't think I could get over. I stayed up all night talking to some of my friends and trying to comprehend that it wasn't my fault, maybe I wasn't supposed to be at that school. And I was miserable at the job so it was kind of a blessing. I just held tight to what Jesus told me, I am supposed to be here in China and He has amazing plans for me here.

The rest of the week I spent hanging out at the house waiting for my recruiter to tell me about interviews. I spent Tuesday wallowing around the apartment. I just didn't feel like going out. Then on Wednesday I got a call saying I had an interview Thursday morning at 10am at a Chinese Kindergarten down the street from my apartment. The interview was actually a demo class so I had to prepare a 15 minute lesson to do at the school. Oh yay! Teaching a random class of Chinese kids a quick English lesson, it's harder than it sounds. So I came up with something simple that I thought the kids would enjoy and it would be easy for me. So Thursday morning I met my recruiter and we went to the school for the interview/demo. I was super nervous because I have never done this before (although that seems to be the theme of my time in China, doing things I've never done). The demo went well, I was super nervous but the kids seemed to enjoy it. The school said I would know the next day if I got the job. 

The next morning (Friday) my recruiter called me to tell me I didn't get the job at the Chinese kindergarten but I had another interview/demo at a Montessori school at 2pm. I wasn't really upset about the job at the Chinese kindergarten because after the interview I wasn't really impressed and I didn't think I would enjoy working there. So the interview was at a school that was a little far away. So I met my recruiter's wife to go to the interview. We got lost and couldn't find the school. So we had to wait til 3 for someone to come find us. We had actually walked right past the school twice but didn't know it was the right school. For the interview I had to teach a short demo class, so I used the same one I did for the previous interview/demo but I shortened it. I might have shortened it a little too much or I rushed through it because I was so nervous. I'm just not too keen on interviews I always get choked up and nervous. :/ So after the demo, all the people interviewing had to go and talk to the assistant to the headmaster about the school and ask questions. I really liked the school. The only problems were that the school day was super long and they couldn't tell me which location I would work at. I don't really want to work too far from my apartment because it's hard to get around Beijing in the morning!

My recruiter said I might hear back from that school the next Monday or Tuesday and until I heard back I could teach at this other kindergarten in Wangjing. He said it was super easy and super laid back. Also he negotiated a higher salary for me and said that they were desperate for teacher so there would be no way for me to get fired from this job. So on Monday I was going to start working at this kindergarten and I could still interview and look into other schools and see if I could find one I liked better. So I stopped worrying about the job situation because I had a job that I might love and if not I could continue looking for a new job. 

On Saturday I went the my recruiter and his family to BeiHai park and walked around. It was so much fun to be out of the house and seeing some of the sights. I know a lot of the buildings in China are similar but it's so cool to see the different places that have been around for thousands of years. The oldest building in America could only be 200 years old. America is still young compared to the rest of the world. There is just so much history here in China!
In front of one of the building at BeiHai park. Love the ancient architecture. Why don't the Chinese do stuff like this anymore?
In the middle of the park is a Lake and in the background there is a temple (that white dome in the middle of the picture to the left of my head).

During this time we also talked about finding me a new apartment. I  won't go into details but my roommate is kind of crazy and it just isn't working out. So my recruiter said he would start looking at apartments. We were all expecting my roommate to be leaving so that I could get a new roommate but it didn't seem that that was going to happen ( her leaving). So I decided that it was just time to move out. I wasn't going to tell her until I found a new place because I didn't want to make thing more awkward. Well on Sunday, shit hit the fan (sorry for the language). My roommate pushed me past my breaking point and I told her I was going to look at apartments because I couldn't live there anymore. I told her I wanted my money back. She said ok.

So I left to meet my recruiter and look at apartments. We went to 5 different ones and only saw 2 that were even worth trying to get. The first one was too expensive so we were trying to get them to come down a little on the price. But they wouldn't. So we found the last one. The apartment was nice and it had 2 bathrooms. And the landlord was willing to drop the price to one that I could afford and there was another teacher coming next Monday who could be my new roommate. The plan was for her to move into my current apartment because my roommate was supposed to be leaving, but that didn't happen. But the apartment was nice and the landlord spoke some English and it just seemed right. I really believe God provided the right apartment because it's unheard of to find an apartment on the first day you go looking. So we said we would rent the apartment and I would be back tomorrow evening to sign the contract.

So on Monday I took a taxi to the new school. I arrived early with some papers I wanted to print out to do with my class. I got there and met with the headmaster. She told me a little about the school and the class I would be teaching. She showed me that the school had tons of worksheets I could do with the students. I found some worksheets I could do with the kids. So the morning went pretty well. The students didn't really want to listen but they would do the worksheets and sing the songs that I had planned for them. After lunch they had play time. After play time I was supposed I take the kids back to my class and have constructive playtime with the them.

During the constructive playtime I had the kids form a circle and we played ring around the rosie so that I could get the kids to sit in a circle. The kids really enjoyed going around in a circle holding hands but as I said sit down one of the little boys lunged forward to sit down. I was holding him arm so he didn't face plant on the floor but he bit his lip and it busted. So on my first day I had a kid bust his lip. That's a great first impression. So we went and rinsed out his mouth and then I took him to one of the Chinese teachers (I didn't have a Chinese teacher in the class with me which seemed odd, because you are supposed to and it was my first day). Then I took the rest of the class back to do another lesson. The rest of the day went well. The headmaster asked me what happened to the little boy and I told them that he fell and bit his lip. I left around 4 and the manager said he would talk to My recruiter about my leaving time tomorrow and that they would see me tomorrow morning.

So now I was headed to the new apartment to sign the lease with the landlord. It's only a 15-20 minute walk from the school. I had to meet the housing agent at the bus stop because he had the contract. Once we got to the apartment I basically just sat at the table while the agent and landlord discussed the contract in Chinese. They would randomly look at me and the landlord would translate what the agent was saying if he was asking me a question. Once they had discussed the contract it was now time for me to sign the contract. The contract was all in Chinese so I was signing a document I couldn't read. So I prayed everything was correct and I would have my recruiter read it over just in case. Then the landlord showed me around the apartment again and told me how to work some of the appliances and the utilities. The utilities in China are usually prepaid so they have cards that you stick into meters in the house to add credit to your water, electricity, and gas. It's all very interesting and confusing. LOL. 

After I finished the apartment stuff I headed back to my old apartment. I didn't get there til like 7 and I was super tired. So I went straight to my room and passed out on my bed. I woke up like an hour later and decided to work on some lesson plans for the next day. Since I knew the schedule and the kids I figured I could be better prepared for school. So I begin making plans trying to come up with activities that the kids would enjoy but were also educational :). I was getting excited about the next day. At 11pm my recruiter calls me. I answer the phone wondering what's up because it's late. He tells me he just got off the phone with the school. (Oh no this can't be good). He said that the little boy that busted his lip went home and told his parents that I pushed him. WHAT?!?!?!? I saved him from doing a face plant on the floor. Seriously. But the school didn't want me to come back until they worked out the problem. My recruiter said that he was trying to get the school and the parents to have a meeting with me so that I could explain what happened because the kid is only 4/5 years old. 

So again I was jobless. Twice in one week. That's unheard of. I called my friends back home and I was crying and just wanted to come home. I had just paid the rent for the new apartment and now I was jobless and moving. Was this really what I was supposed to be doing here in China? I was ready to get on a plane and head home. I had grown enough right? Was my time in China done? I know my friends would welcome me back with open arms and be so glad I was back. But was that what God wanted me to do? As I started to pray and remember the past week I could see that this was an attack from the enemy. The first job, my roommate, the second job all had common themes - lying and manipulation. You can really see the devil does not want me here in China. Must mean God has some awesome plans for me here. I just needed to get over this hurdle.

So Tuesday I went out with my recruiter's wife because I couldn't stay inside all day because I would have definitely convinced myself to go home. So I went out with her and just talked about how I was feeling and she told me to stick it out. There are always jobs in China and that Koreans here are crazy (the past two jobs were Korean schools). The ways the schools operate is just weird and the parents band together to gang up and get what they want. So I felt a little better after hanging out with her and talking. Then I headed to church for the prayer meeting. It was so good to be surrounded by other believers and praying for the church and the people and the city. It was so good. One of the guys at the church had a word for us and for me. Trust God. He has a plan and although we don't always know the next step He is always there.

After the prayer meeting I talked to the pastor and told him I felt like God has been wanting me to come and talk to him. So we set up a meeting for the next day at 10am. I went home and my recruiter called me and said that he had set up an interview for me at 10am the next day. Seriously? I just set up a meeting to talk with the pastor at the same time. So I had to text the pastor and ask if we could reschedule the meeting because of the interview. He said no problem but I still thought it was weird that it was at the exact same time.

So Wednesday I went to the new schools, it was kind of far away. The boss picked me up from the subway and took me to his school. He showed me around and told me what I would be doing. I also met the other foreign teachers. It was a really nice school. The school provided housing (so I would have to move, but it's close to the school) and 3 meals a day Monday through Friday, but the salary is low compared to most schools. I would have to share an apartment with a guy from Ireland (I'm a little hesitant but it could be awesome). I liked the school, but I didn't have the feeling that I wanted to say yes right away. So I told the boss that I needed to talk with my recruiter and I would let him now my decision. So I headed back to the apartment and called my recruiter and he said I didn't have to make a decision right away and that he was talking to 3 international schools in Wangjing. So I continued to pray about the school and ask God if that was where I was supposed to be. As I told more people about the school the more and more I liked it but I still didn't feel right about accepting the position. 

On Thursday I met up again with my recruiter's wife. I didn't want to be at home alone for the entire day. So we went out and just walked around and talked and she showed me the gym where I could take jujitsu classes (I think it would be fun!). Then that evening the pastor was going to a worship night at another church and I tagged along. I can't pass up a good worship night! And oh my goodness I'm glad I didn't! It was so awesome! I love being in the presence of The Lord. I just know he has me covered and it's all going to be ok! I love it! He is amazing!

That night I made plans to meet with the pastor on Friday (tomorrow) at 1pm. Well then my recruiter called to tell me that he had an interview for me tomorrow at 2pm. Seriously I just made plans again to talk to the pastor! I wasn't going to cancel again. Thankfully the school pushed back the meeting until 3:30. I was beginning to wonder why these interviews kept conflicting with my meeting with the pastor. Was the devil trying to get me not to meet with the pastor? I know I was supposed to meet with him! But it worked out and the timing was perfect so I could meet with the pastor and go to the school.

The meeting with the pastor went really well. He and his wife just confirmed everything my friends had been saying about me being in China. The agreed that God had a reason for me to be in China and that great things are coming. I felt very encouraged when I left and I am excited to see what relationship grows between me and them while I am here.

I went to the school and I fell in love. It's everything I wanted in a school. It's just like a school in America. It's an international school so I could possibly have it count towards my teaching license in KY (maybe I still have to check into that). There are tons of other foreign teachers and it sounds like they are really supportive and have a great work environment. I left the school hoping they would call and say I got the job! It would mean I could stay at the apartment I just rented and I wouldn't have to move to a new part of Beijing! I went home after the meeting praying that God would give me this job if I was supposed to have it and if I wasn't the school would call and say they weren't interested. I know that if I don't get this job then I would take the other job.

Once I got home I finished packing up all my stuff because I was moving to my new apartment after I finished home tutoring. I was super excited about moving because I couldn't stand to be in that apartment anymore. The mother of the boy I am tutoring came to pick me up and allowed me to fill her car up with all of my belongings because she was going to take me to the new place once I finished tutoring. I am so glad God provided me with this family because they are super sweet and very helpful!

Tutoring went great. I really love the boy I am tutoring and he really seems to like me. The mother took me to my new apartment. We got lost but thank goodness she has internet on her phone and I could navigate us to the new place. She helped me move all my bags in and then she left me in my new apartment. So I started looking in the rooms to make sure all was as I saw and thought it was going to be. I went into the first bedroom and notice something was missing. The mattress! So I go and check the other bedroom and it too is missing the mattress. Did the landlord really take the mattresses? He was moving to Sweden, don't they have mattresses there? So my first night in the new apartment and I slept on the couch. At least there was a couch, it would have sucked to sleep on the floor! I talked to my recruiter about the mattresses and he said that we would go to IKEA sometime to look at mattresses. The landlord kind of screwed us over with the mattresses. It's a great thing that IKEA is just around the corner from my new apartment.

On Saturday I met up with my aunt's friend from Mexico. It was really cool on Thursday I got ahold of my aunt who told me that her friend was in Beijing and he is moving his family to Beijing in September. What a small world! So on Saturday I met him for dinner in San Li Tun, a major expat place in Beijing. He took me to this Mexican restaurant and we talked about China and what we liked and didn't like. I am really glad we met and I hope I get to meet his family soon. It will be nice to have more people to talk to! Your family here is made up of all different kinds of people!

Sunday I went to church and sang on the worship team, despite my horribly bad cough that I am almost certain is caused by the pollution. I am really enjoying singing back up on the worship team. Then the message that the pastor preached was amazing and I felt like it was just for me! It was about God's plan for you and even though you don't know what the next step is follow The Lord because he makes divine appointments. So even though you don't understand it at the moment, it is all working toward his plan. I don't think I do it the justice of how good it was, but trust me it spoke to me and encouraged me! After church I went out to eat with some members of the worship team and the pastor. It was nice to be included. Then after lunch I went home to my new apartment and took a nap on the couch. Then the pastor called and invited me to his house for dinner with his family and two other girls from the church who are my age. So I went to his house and ate dinner with them and then we watched  a movie. It truly was a great day!

On Monday I met up with my recruiter's wife and we walked to IKEA to look at mattresses. We got there and I swear whoever designed IKEA had an ulterior motive as a science experiment because that place is a maze! Are they trying to see if people can find their way out or if they get tired and just sleep on the furniture. Yes at IKEA in Beijing you will find people sitting on the sofas watching movies on the televisions or you will find people sleeping on the couches and mattresses. And IKEA is ok with this, it is common. There was even a news special about people sleeping on the furniture at IKEA! But anyways we walked around trying to find the mattresses and then once we did I remembered that I didn't measure the beds so I didn't know what size beds we needed. So we had to walk back to the apartment to measure the beds. Then walked back to IKEA to figure out which beds to get. The mattresses were kind of expensive so my recruiter looked online at the Chinese Amazon place and found some cheaper mattresses that would be delivered the next day. Perfect only one more day of sleeping on the couch.

Monday night my new roommate arrived from Canada! I felt bad that we didn't have any beds in the apartment but I tried to make the other couch more comfortable. :) She is super nice and she has experience teaching abroad. She has never been to China but she taught in Korea. So far we have gotten along great! I am really hoping I can stay at this apartment because I am really enjoying it living here with her. We are a great match because she has experience living abroad and I have some experience in China, but we are both new to China. Hoping this will be a great friendship.

As I was finishing this post my recruiter called and told me that the international school didn't want to hire me. I'm not going to lie I was kind of sad because I really liked the school. But I did ask God to close the door to that school if it wasn't where I was supposed to be. It is just hard because I really liked the school. My recruiter did say he was going to look into one more school here in Wangjing, before I pack my stuff up again and move. So we will see. I really need to stop getting my hopes up and just wait for God to tell me where to go. Maybe I am supposed to move to Huilonggong. I don't know.

Praying for guidance and direction  :) thanks for sharing in this journey with me! And thanks for praying!!!

Busy Busy China Girl

These past two weeks have been so busy! I started my home tutoring, my roommate's friend from Germany came to town, we went sightseeing, and of course I have been working :). Lots of things going on and it's all amazing!

I started my home tutoring last Wednesday (July 30th). It was awesome! The family lets me join them for dinner. It is so amazing to have the opportunity to eat Chinese home cooking. It's always delicious. During dinner they try to communicate with me in English, usually asking me questions like "What is this?" "How do you say this?". Sometimes they speak Chinese and I just smile because I have no idea what they are saying. LOL. But they are super nice! The little boy I am tutoring is really sweet and a lot of fun! The mother gave me his English books from school to use for lessons and then I have just been building from there. The mom wants me to be strict with him but I like being fun and he speaks English with me, which is the point. I guess I might have to start being more structured during some of the lesson :). But all in all I am really enjoying it and the family is super nice. It is also a plus that they come and pick me up and drop me off! The only thing I wonder about is when I am going to get paid.
The little boy I am tutoring teaching me how to play Chinese chess. You can see people playing this game everywhere in China!


Last Friday my roommate's friend from Germany came to Beijing. So that night, after home tutoring, we went out. I thought we were going to go to out at like 9pm but no we left our apartment at 12:30am (technically it was Saturday morning, but it still counted as Friday night in my mind). We went to the club, Caribe, in downtown Beijing. We got there around 1am and it was packed! We danced a little bit, well I danced a little they danced a lot. Then I sat in one of the booths and just absorbed the atmosphere. It was crazy but there were a lot of foreigners so it was nice to hear English being spoken in public. By 4am I was ready to go home. Smoking is the thing to do in China because they do it everywhere including inside. So the loud music (which I love) combined with smoke gave me a headache and I was just ready to go. So we left the club and walked to Starbucks. We were going to grab something to eat then head home. Unfortunately at 4:30am Starbucks is out of everything except for coffee. Which really isn't surprising but it sucked! I was going to order a shaken lemon tea but they were our of lemon. How to you go out of lemon at Starbucks?  Oh well. So we headed home empty handed and got home around 5am. That's right this small town girl stayed out at the club until 5am. I will probably never do it again but it was definitely a fun experience. 
The club, Caribe, where we danced the night away. LOL.

On Saturday we all stayed in to recuperate from that morning's events. LOL. Saturdays are still really hard for me. I look forward to them all week but when they get here I am just homesick and wish I was back in the States with my family and friends. So that Saturday was no different.  I spent the day watching netflix because if I go into my room and be by myself I just cry and I didn't feel like crying. So everyone else took a nap and I watched movies. I successfully made it through without crying! That was my goal!

Sunday was my second time singing on the worship team at church! There was a guest worship leader and she did great! I really had so much fun singing and worshiping with them. And I didn't feel as nervous. I was still a little nervous but I think I enjoyed it more. I don't really know if I sounded good. I was still getting over a cough so I am pretty sure my voice cracked a couple of times. But all that matters to me is that I had a good time!

After church on Sunday we went to the Great Wall!!! Oh my gosh it was amazing! We almost changed our plans because our driver was late and it looked like it was going to rain. But our driver said we could make it so we decided to go and it would be an adventure :). It took us about an hour to make the hour and a half trip to the Mutianyu section of the Great Wall. Our driver drove like a maniac (well based on American standards), but a normal Chinese driver here in China! It started raining on our drive there but once we got there it stopped and the sun came out! It was magnificent!!! There was barely anybody there so it wasn't crowded. It was like we had it ourselves! I had so much fun and I can't wait to go back when we have more time to explore. 
The entry way to walk on the Great Wall.
I made it! I was on the Great Wall!!! (You can be jealous!!!) :)
Still amazing! The Great Wall.... one of the 7 Wonders of the World!
My travel buddy, Kristoff Karrots, even enjoyed the Great Wall! (you can expect more pictures of him!)
There are so many photo opportunities on the Great Wall.

Next we went to Olympic Park. We decided to stop by on our way home and I am so glad that we did! It was amazing!!! I saw the Bird's Nest and the Water Cube. They are so pretty at night! All the lights are spectacular. My roommate's friend wanted to get dressed in traditional Chinese clothes for a picture (it only cost 30RMB which is less than $5) and they let him wear the outfit around Olympic Park. We didn't make it very far because he was swarmed by people wanting a picture with him. It was crazy!!! People were even wanting our pictures. And then some people passed by taking pictures. It was crazy but so hilarious and fun!!! After we left Olympic Park we headed home because my roommate and I had to teach the next morning!
The Water Cube. This is where Michael Phelps won all those Gold Medals at the 2008 Beijing Olympics.
The Bird's Nest. It truly is an amazing sight!
Agassi dressed in a traditional Chinese outfit. Everyone wanted to take our pictures! LOL. Lots of Fun!!!

On Tuesday I came home from work and we went to Tiananmen Square. We went to see the gardens and we tried to find the Forbidden City but had no luck. But where we went was amazing and the scenery was gorgeous. I don't really know the names of all the things we saw I just know that they are pretty :). I think we are planning on going back sometime so I will try to learn more. At 7pm the lights on Tiananmen Square come on. It's truly amazing! I don't have words to describe it, it's just amazing and is definitely a sight to see. Again it was another opportunity for random people to take our pictures LOL. All in all it has been a great week of sight seeing, the only thing that sucked was having to go to work the next morning!
The first picture of our adventure to Tiananmen Square.
Kristoff really liked Tiananmen Square!
All the lights on Tiananmen Square. Doesn't it look amazing!!!
Just one of the cool building we saw inside Tiananmen Square. 

Work this week has been a little different. I had to catch an earlier bus because the younger kids were on holiday and the bus I usually ride in the morning picks up the little kids. So I was getting to work at 8:15am rather than 9:10am. I got to spend some more time with the kids and I have really enjoyed that. I love these kids and they are slowing leaving to go back to their international schools. I'm going to miss them, but I'm excited about the new kids I will have in class. 

This week I tried to come up with some fun activities to do with the kids in my class while we were reading The Little Red Hen. So I found some worksheets and put them on a USB so I could take it to school to print them out. When I got there I asked my "boss" if I could use the computer to print off some worksheets for a lesson and he said no, tell the other teacher and she can do it. I just blew it off but it kind of upset me. Like why can't I print off some worksheets to teach the kids? Isn't that what you are paying me for? Anyways I gave the USB to the other teacher and she printed one of the worksheets I had, I guess that is better than none. But it still irked me that I couldn't print my own damn worksheets. 

I talked to my recruiter the other day. I finally got an address to get packages sent!!! Yay! I can't wait to start getting things from home!!! I also told him about the school not allowing me to use the printer. He said the school isn't used to having a foreign teacher that actually does their job. He told me that they really are just looking for someone who shows up and interacts with the kids. It's great that I am getting paid to be around kids because I love it but I have a degree in education and there is so much more I could be doing. My recruiter is going Monday to talk to them about my contract (praying everything goes smoothly) and he said that it might take a couple more months for the school to trust me more so that I can use the computer and printer (and other materials). Basically they want to know that I am going to stay, which I plan on doing. So I will just leave it in God's hands because he truly has been orchestrating a great adventure for me here in Beijing :). 

Highs and Lows : Week 3

This past week has been a whirlwind. Highs and lows all over the place. I am still trying to get used to being in this foreign place and following where God is leading. There are some days that I just want to stay in bed and not move but then there are days that excite me and I can't wait to see what God has in store for me. I'm not saying those days are perfect. I still have rough times and sometimes I just want to go back home to Lexington. But then something awesome happens and I am excited I am here in Beijing. I'm just not a fan of being on the other side of the world from my friends and family! Also the smog here is ridiculous. Some days during the week it is clear and pretty and then other days it extremely smoggy. It all depends on the direction of the wind. 
 Nice clear day! The sky looks amazing! Oh and this is the building I am living in :).
Smoggy day. Usually there are mountains on the horizon but when it's smoggy you can't see them or the buildings.
The smog was so bad one day that I wore a mask to work. Then in the afternoon it was pretty again! 
The mornings are actually really hard for me. I don't ever want to leave my bed, not because it's too comfortable but because I don't know what that day has in store or me. Yet I still get up, because who really knows what each day has in store for them? I know God has a great day planned for me I just have to get up and walk out the door. I head to school to meet the unknown. I am still trying to figure out my school. It is just so different from the States. Everyday I go in thinking I know what I am going to do but usually it's the complete opposite! This is my 3rd week at the school and I still don't know what to expect when I walk upstairs to my classroom. I love the kids I work with and they seem to like me. I am usually greeted by a few students at the door with hugs and a "Good Morning, Allie Teacher!" This usually brings a smile to my face and is a great start to the day!
The entrance to the kindergarten I am teaching at.
Each day brings something new in the classroom. Usually it's new because I never know what I will be teaching. I have gone into the classroom with plans and games but I usually don't get to teach or do them because I am given something else to teach for the day. So I am learning to be quick on my feet and go in with different activities and games that can be adapted to any lesson. I am still trying to figure out how to cut back on the kids playtime and try to do more educational play (likes songs and dances because these kids love to sing). I think it is going to take me some time to cut back the playtime. I don't think the kids should be sitting all day but they should be doing more educational playtime because try aren't really learning English during playtime. 

In other news, I was asked to join the worship team at the church I am attending here in Beijing. The worship leader had never heard me sing but insisted I join. I was really nervous and on the fence about going or not. But God seemed to open all the doors for this, so on Thursday I attended my first worship team practice! Yes I am singing on the worship team. I still can't believe it! I am used to just singing in the shower and in my car but never in front of people. I talked to some of my best friends about this and they helped me to realize this is something God is doing to bring me out of my shell. I am doing things here that I probably wouldn't do back in the States. One of my friends reminded me about what God said. A few months back God had told me that I would one day be speaking in front of a large crowd. I don't know what I will be speaking about just that it will be in front of a lot of people. So I guess you could look at singing on the worship team as a way to get comfortable being in front of people. :)

So this Sunday was my first day singing in front of the church. I was super nervous and barely looked above my music stand. I knew the words but was so nervous. Every time I looked up I was afraid I would see someone staring at me and then I would become self conscious. After the service I had some people tell me I did well and that they were excited I was on the team. Part of me thinks they are crazy but I am excited about the future and nervous. I just found out today that 3 of the 6 members of the team are leaving for holiday for the next 3 weeks so people are actually going to hear me. I might be seriously freaking out on the inside! I guess we will see what happens :). 
My first Sunday on the worship team! 
Also on Saturday I got another job. My recruiter has a friend that wants her son to practice English. So I met the family and it sounds like a great job and a great way to make some friends here in China. And it's another easy door God has opened. I mean I don't have to do anything and things just happen. It's really amazing the things God is doing! The family is letting me eat dinner with them the 3 days I am with them. Also they are picking me up and dropping me off at my apartment. So I don't have to take the bus! The mother also said she wants to look at this as more of a friendship. She said they would help me with anything I may need while I am in China. Also they offered to take me sightseeing and bring along friends if I wanted. I am just so excited to see what will happen while I am working with this family. I am also getting paid for my time tutoring! 

So things in China are starting to look up. I know I have just really shared about the good things happening here in China. The lows are just being homesick and still trying to figure out my school. Being that school is Monday through Friday it seems that the lows are more than the highs. But the highs are so awesome that they make the lows not seem too bad. God is bringing me out of my shell and doing amazing things!